i really hurts everytime i think bout it
please dun say no

i hate you
you ruined my life
because of something we did
i may lose someone i truly treasure
for that i hate you

you said things were too good to be true
i agree
i found you
and cos of MY mistake
you turned out to be too good to be true for me
why?
cos of a moment of lust
if i could i wouldn't have
but i cant
all i can do is ask for two things
one being your forgiveness, which i know i will never fully have
and two being a 2nd chance, i really dun wanna lose you
please.

i came here to write about smth
then i turned to watch tv
now i dunno why i'm here
hmmm
ai jealous pig
just wanna tell you i really really enjoy the time we spend together k
yah la...i know u tut tut
sometimes i must bear with it
nvm la
i'll learn to adapt
take care
maybe thats what i came here to write about
hmmm...

oh
this is my 100th entry
wat a landmark
nth much happening now
slacking,gymming,playing,meeting
if i've nth to write then why am i here u ask
its cos of a certain tut tut
say i got chronic amnesia
therefore this entry is dedicated to her
enjoy

LAVINA THE BIG FAT LIAR

new blogskin
i simply love it
ok la
the entries are abit difficult to see la
but thats a small small sacrifice for the beautiful layout
i just love it

going out with lavina on wed
smth to look forward to
i just love it when we go out
but she violent la
so have to wear my mask with padlock
and she'll bring her crowbar
how fun?

i haven't been blogging for awhile
thats because there's nth to talk about
i do the same thing everyday
play game
slp at 3
wake up at 1
slack
go gym/go play bball
come back at 10
play game again
u get the cycle
sometimes i go out but other than that is just slacking
anyway
this entry is for lavina
she ask me to update so i update

ps. its not becos U ask me to update ok
u got braces
so cannot eat HARD food right
so poorthing
only can eat porridge right
so i give in and update

i need a job

played bball today
felt good
before that went to the lib and the park in front of that with lav
she just cant sit in one place
fun la
somemore got ppl dream of me sia
shld feel honoured?
right
i know you'll read this before you go out
so have fun today k
gym tomolo
gotta work on the muscles
but after that dunno wat to do
shall see
adios

there is nth for me to do now
thus this blog entry
was watching the oprah prime time
this guy named dave chappelle rejected a $50 million contract
and he disappeared for awhile too
it was cos of some ethical reason or smth
ppl were starting to think he was crazy and needed medication
which make us think
are things like money, fame and establishment what drive our lives
or issit the emotional things like love, happiness and confidence

think
relationships are full off promises and compromises and blah blah blah
but when do you really mean the promises you make
girl: we will get married when we are 25 have children and live happily ever after
guy: i promise
next day argue and break up
girl: must bring me honeymoon to hawaii
guy: i promise
next day guy cheat on another girl
relationship ends
dun get me wrong
guys ask the gals to make promises too
but when do we actually mean it
do we have to put words to paper to actually make the promise 'legal'?
when do you actually know if your partner means the promise

think
what do you actually wanna do in your life
just finish poly?
find job asap and make lots and lots of money?
marry a rich guy/girl to ensure my future?
turn gay so i dun have to pay for a wedding?
things that you do everyday of your life do result in the outcome of your life
u decide to go to the lib to read a book
you pick out a good book to read
years later in a business meeting with a client
the atmosphere is tense and there is nth to get you 2 talking
suddenly a book drops out of his bag
its the same book you read years ago
you 2 start talking bout the book
the business relationship blossoms
you clinch the deal
you get a promotion
big bucks
new car
happy

small things go a long way

just like that and its the weekends
hols are passing by pretty fast
went to queensway today
finally got to buy the jersey
not the one i was intending to buy
but it was the one i intended to but before the one i intended to buy today
geddit?
anyway bought that and a shorts
so i can play play play
got the form for the converse 3 on 3
actually wanted to play
but sitting on the shittily long bus ride home
i decided not to take part
because..i dun really know
just dun feel like taking part
nvm next year will be a must
no job found yet
just playing
p.s i miss our outings

the exams are over
and whether anot i will regret will only be revealed on 24 mar 06
cos thats when the results are out
today felt like a complete idiot
didn't sleep at all cos disturbed by bstats
got up from lying down at 5.30? to study again
bathed at 7 and left the house
went to the canteen to find none of my classmates
maybe i'm too early?
so sat down and read notes
10 min later i felt impatient so i started calling ppl
called kevin's hp
reception not good, and he said he at home, i dun believe
so i say i call his house
wtf
he answered sia
so sian
told me that exam at 2 not 9
went home

i have learnt somethings from this sem
firstly, try not to slack during the the first part of the sem
cos it will be difficult to catch up as the sem goes on
secondly try to spend some of your free time on reading up on ur notes
this will give you some idea about wat the tutor/lecturer is actually talking about
thirdly try to complete or at the very least attempt your tutorials
because this will help you dearly in understanding the modules

these are the modules that i think i will be taking next sem

Business Systems Analysis & Design
Cost & Management Accounting
Human Resource Management
Innovation & Enterprise in Action ^
Internet Programming Techniques
Operations Management

they seem appealing?interesting?complicated?
nevertheless, i'll try to learn the 3 points that i have stated above
in order to do better next sem than this sem

ever so quickly year 1 is over
i truly hope that my class will stick together next sem (no one repeat)
i truly love you guys and gals (exception!!!)
in a few weeks time year 2 is to begin
till then i'm going to try to enjoy my hols.